Really?

I have lost 81 pounds - AMAZING! That is like one of the only things that keeps me happy right now!

53 days later...

53 days later, means 53 pounds lighter. Weird, huh? It's day 53 and I have lost 53 pounds! WHOO! It's taking some time for it to sink in. I never thought that this was possible. I already feel like a brand new person, and there is still more to come the harder I work at it. I am almost ashamed to look at pictures from before. I hated not loving myself for who I was on the inside. I would always stare in the mirror and wonder why I let myself get that way, it's not like I was having fun. I was killing myself slowly and I didn't realize it. Now, when I wake up, the first thing I do is smile at myself in the mirror - the Heather on the inside is finally being set free and is glowing on the outside. There is no more hiding, I hold my head up and I'm proud of myself. I don't like seeing people that I haven't seen in a few years, such as people I went to school with. They wouldn't have anything to do with me before, and that was shallow. But now, they want to. Why would you let something like that get in the way of seeing a person for who they really are? If you didn't have time for me in your life before, why would you want to make time for me now? I'm not saying that it's bad, I just don't understand it. Anywho, on to better things. As I was saying, me - I see me now, and I like it. Don't worry, I'm not conceited. I just seem to have a better outlook on life, the things around me, and the people that care about me the most. I appreciate everyone's encouragement, and support. Without friends and family, what would we be? I look forward to writing 53 days from now and shocking myself even more. I know I can do this, and I won't let anything hold me back this time. For now...

Slacker with a Capital S. Where do I start?

In the past month, my life has changed dramatically. I underwent surgery, which in itself is a big deal. I feel as if I have become a totally different person, on the outside...and there is still more change to come. To say that it wasn't a big deal would mean that I was lying. I find that I have more money to spend on the things I actually like, instead of the things that I don't need. Make sense? It is a blessing.

Work has remained at a steady, yet ever so boring pace. A daily ritual from 12-9.

I have connected with old friends & new friends, and have enjoyed every minute of it. All the while, I tried to avoid certain people, but in due time - people do change, whether we believe it or not. Well, for now....

out of my element...

Lately, I've been feeling weighed down. Things have been changing so fast. Between my job, school, church, and my personal life - things have been so rushed. Things at work are honestly, pretty crazy. Our shift is changing on September 1st, and I'm up for a new position. The big debate still continues. I cannot wait to get back out west. I just found out that I have to get new glasses, and all 4 of my wisdom teeth have to come out next month. Oh, Joy. I'm not complaining, I'm just taking it in stride. On a happier note, I have met some amazing people this past month. I don't want to jinx myself, so I'm not going to go into detail. Anywho, I have been staying pretty busy with shoots on the side. It's been a blast. I have written a ton of songs these past few months. I think I need to find someone to get them to. Well, I think thats about it for now. I'm headed to Raleigh tonight, that should be fun in 5:00 traffic. Wish me luck! :]

It's been a freakin while...

WOW!
Where do I start? How bout' some photos!






The Fam Damily!





I'm playing catch up. I guess I need to try harder to write in here more often. Although, with it being 1:15am here, I feel too tired to write anything tonight. So, I'll leave with this.